Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Hopeless


I have this policy in life.

"Never regret. Any mistakes done during the journey of my path of life is part of the learning point not to repeat them again"
But I wonder sometimes whether I was mistaken on claiming some decisions I made was actually a real "mistake". Or is it nothing...

I always thought that you have to be the person whom you are judging, in order to understand him, or her. What made him/her that way? What lead him to the decision he/she made?

But when someone destroys what you have believed in for so many years, you start to think twice. Even the decision made by him/her is acceptable... you still have to think twice.

I believed in friendship.

I believed in hopes.

I believed in loyalty.

Now everything is faded away... I have nothing to believe in.

And now I'm this hopeless man without any trust left for anyone...

"Happy New Year! 2009!"

Sunday, December 21, 2008

A dedication

Cuba kau dengar
meluahkan rasa hati
Dan bila kau bersuara
Setia ku mendengar
Agar tenang kau merasa
Siapa Sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila Tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
Itulah aku padamu
Pernahkah kau ada
Bila ku perlu Tuk menyatakan rasa sakit Dalam diri
Dan bila kau perlu Setia ku menunggu
Agar senang kau merasa
Maafkan kerana aku tak pernah
Terlintas tuk menulis pada mu
Salahkan ku
Tak mungkin lagi aku meminta
Untuk kau mendengar
Untuk kau melihat ke mataku
***
Well said by the lyric of the song by Faizal Tahir...

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Meaning of life?


I stopped at pump station last Friday while on my way back to Perak.


While waiting for a full tank, someone on a wheel chair stopped near me. He smiled...


"Muda-muda dah pakai kereta besar"


Well, Gen2 tak ada laa besar kan. But I replied, "Saya tak ada laa muda sangat". I feel ashamed, a bit as I don't need any big effort in owning a car, with the help of my parents of course and knowing that many out there were working their butt off just to get their life going while here I am, 23, and having quite a good and easy life, with the help of my parents again of course. This is what we call Rezeki.


"Nama siapa?" I asked, watching and trying not to show any sympathy. "Amir"... [tibe-tibe teringat kat amir]. I felt very sorry for him, he don't have both legs and left arm. All that he has is his right arm and he's only 21. We got ourselves into a couple minutes of conversation on his plan to continue his study on Tahfiz. He's a nice kid...


It seems like life is unfair. But never forget, Tuhan itu Maha Adil. Having all the wealth and health do not mean that life would be easy. Ujian duniawi itu satu cabaran yang kita sendiri kadang-kadang lupa. Wealth is only something that is lend by God for us to show what is the real meaning of life.


Wish you the very best, Amir.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Enough of You

I think I am a good person
Not the best, yet not that bad
Why do you treat me this way
I want to be appreciated
I want to feel the presence
Still what I received is your absence
I had enough...

Sunday, December 7, 2008

My best friend


I don't have to tell any secrets... because my best friend knows everything.

Saja laa wat post ni, pasal tengah bengang sket, tapi whatever it is, my best friend will remained the best as it is to him I will turned to at every high and low moments since he understand me the most.
Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha. [apa kaitan tah...]

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Movies review

You know what, I've been to movies every week since the last two months. Tak pernah dibuatnya, but very suddenly when I start to get comfortable with some other of my colleueges, everything is just fine, release tension kan and there is some more things that we can add into our conversations other than WORK.



The latest I watched is twilight. The hero is super duperly macho gile with a very sweet innocent girl. The story line is OK, mix with some romantic scenes sikit, action pon sikit, I would not consider it as 'perfect', but the characters give a very huge extra points to the movie. Tatau laa ngape, tapi hero dia memang sangatlah bergaya mengalahkan james bond. Oh, he's a vampire by the way... bukan superman or batman. Then he falls in love with a normal human being and there the story started. Sangatlah best kalau tengok bersama girlfriend. :-) [ 8/10 ]




Then, the previous week I watched Antoo Fighter. For a Malaysian movie, the graphic is the best one I've seen so far. Sangatlah lawa... but sadly, the storyline is empty and I think Radhi OAG is not the perfect main role. Ada babak yang sangat-sangatlah kelakar giler, but at some scenes plak membuatkan saya tertanya-tanya, "kenapa perlu ada babak ni? macam tak perlu pun tak ada effect apa-apa...." [ 6/10 ]


Anyhow, saja lah nak stressed out kan kat sini, saya rasa, watching a Malaysian movie is not that bad laa. We should give our people a chance to grow, takkan nak expect Malaysia movie macam foreign movies kan. But a chance is important for a Malaysian brand, and never to forget, we are ourselves a Malaysian brand. Rejecting the local brand, means we are rejecting ourselves.




Ooooh, ni lagi satu movie that you should never miss~! Madagascar 2 - Escape to Africa. Sangat-sangatlah hillarious~! Sesuai untuk bersama seisi keluarga. Cewah. Tapi cerita dia tak ada laa light sangat, tapi sangatlah santai. Funny, but with a very deep messages. Tatau nak review apa, pasal ingat Madagascar, ingat ketawa. Hehehe... [ 8/10 ]